Music has always been a part of my life for as long as i can remember. I grew up with my sister playing french horn and the flute. She also played the piano...a skill that i covet. My sister Cristina is 10 years older than me and i've always looked up to her. When i was younger she used to sing me to sleep, even when i got older i'd beg her to climb into bed and sing to me until i fell asleep. She'd sing me all the songs from the Little Mermaid and then go on to other Disney movies. She's mix it up with the Prince of Egypt a lot too. I used to hate singing, but my sister made me sing with her as she played the piano and our parents gathered around the piano(my brother was already married at this point). We'd sing A Child's Prayer and countless children's hymns, then ventured into the Prince of Egypt as i got older, along with other movies. My dad always complained when my sister and i started singing in the kitchen while he was watching TV. Now he tells me it's too quiet without me and i can see the smile he gets on his face when i start singing to myself as i do things around the house when i visit. He's got a soft spot :) He's the one that made me go to Ward Choir with him, he's got a nice tenor voice but never really uses it. My mother can't carry a tune in a bucket and she passed that gift onto my brother.
I blame my sister for my love of music, because her and I are the only ones that are really into music. My mother did raise me on Josh Groban though and an Italian opera singer, but i can't remember his name. Andre Botelli? Maybe. So i used to hate singing because i got very nervous, but my mother forced me to take Choir in 8th grade, although i wanted to take anything BUT that. It was in High School that i really experienced music. Sure i loved to hear it, but singing it was a different story, especially with a choir. I lost myself in music and really began to understand what people meant when they talked about music touching them in ways they could never describe. I also started playing around with my voice in High School. I started harmonizing- i can still remember the first song i harmonized with, it was Chasing Cars by Snow Patrol- and pushing the boundaries of my voice. I found comfort in singing alto but also realized if i wanted to i could hit soprano notes that had scared me before.
The feelings that music can create in a person...it's too beautiful to describe.That's why i love live music. It's just so much more than listening music on a cd or your computer. I began to write music and really start searching for my own music taste.
I really found my music taste when i came to college, i'd say it happened Winter 2011- Fall 2011. Friends began to introduce me to music and i picked out what i liked and what i didn't. I opened myself to Rap, i started singing with acoustic versions of songs i loved, and began to identify with lyrics of songs that i would have never listened to before. I'm not going to lie, i love songs more when i can sing and harmonize with them. There is just something about singing...i can't describe it. But it's a sort of freedom, a way of expressing myself. It's a blessing that i've been given, a talent that i try my best to hide. I don't sing around people that i'm not comfortable with, so if i sing around you...well then we're at that point.
It's something that i can't get away from, nor do i want to, it's a part of me. Music is a large part of me. I don't know what i would do without it. I would continually be frustrated because i wouldn't be able to express myself fully.
As Victor Hugo once put it "Music expresses that which cannot be said but on which it is impossible to be silent"
Music stirs something within my, it touches my soul, and can anyone really keep it to themselves when they experience that?
Here is one of my new favourites. It hits my in my soft spot and moves me in ways i haven't felt in awhile.
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